What's Different Now?

The process of taking Sarah off treatment has been easy in some ways and in other ways it required adjusting our schedule.

Allowing her to sleep through the night has influenced the time she wakes up and her nap schedule. When I would feed her during the night, she would usually sleep-drink her 2am bottle and 7am bottle and then sleep until 9 or 9:30am. Now she is waking anytime between 6:30 and 8:30am. She is also taking two longer naps during the day.

Stopping the carnitine was easy. Sarah quite enjoyed the carnitine as she got older. She was a pro at taking it with her bottles. I regret not documenting it on video. I did try to take some pictures of her one day when she was sucking on her carnitine syringe.

I've noticed her urine smells differently now. I always thought her urine smelled weird, not fishy like some people complain of when they are taking carnitine supplements but it was distinct. Now it smells less distinct.

She seems to be adjusting fine to the whole milk mixed with her Lipistart. At first she was drinking less of her bottles but now she is drinking as much as usual.

Doin' Fine

Sarah is doing just fine. We haven't seen any signs that she may have CPT II (this doesn't mean she doesn't have it, because kids can seem fine yet still have it - I say this just to keep myself in reality). She has been sleeping most of the night and waking up happy.

Today she signed that she wanted to eat please and I walked with her to the fridge and asked her what she wanted to eat. She pointed to the 2% milk grated cheese and got excited. I let her have some. We haven't really ever given her much grated cheese before. It was fun to give her what she asked for and not feel like I might be doing something detrimental to her.

Sometime in the next week or so we will need to go in to the lab to get Some of Sarah's blood drawn to check her carnitine levels to make sure they are in the normal range still.

Praise God for this time and that Sarah is healthy.

The Kaiser Metabolic Clinic

September 10th, 2008, 1:30PM

Kerry and I drove Sarah to her first Kaiser metabolic appointment. It was about a 45 minute drive to get there. We had heard the news about her DNA results two days earlier. I had been more lax on following the care directions for Sarah because I thought they were going to tell us that they now thought she most likely didn't have it and so they were going to slowly ween her off the carnitine and elixir to see if her blood levels stayed normal on their own.

When we arrived, Kerry stayed outside. The nurse weighed and measured Sarah and instructed me to put the baby hospital gown on her. I thought it was so cute but I only had my cell phone to take pictures with so they are blurry.

When the doctor entered she looked at the test results that I brought with me from the other clinic. She mentioned that she would ask the people she knew in France about some of Sarah's blood test numbers. The doctor informed me that she spent time in France working with the people that discovered something about CPT II (I think it was either the CPT 2 gene or something about the gene).

I confessed that I had breastfeed Sarah once we heard the news about her DNA testing. The doctor said that my choice was not wise and that I was an ostrich with my head in the ground. She claimed I was in denial about my daughter and her health. She said I should have waited to make such decisions until after I had heard her interpretation of the DNA test. She said I should continue treating Sarah because there is still a chance that she has CPT II even though they could not detect any mutation on her CPT 2 gene.

There was a polymorphism on one strand of her DNA but this variant is not known to cause any disorder. There was a 70% chance that a mutation would be detected and that left a 30% chance that she could still have CPT II because of an unknown mutation. This still confuses me because there were NO mutations found so that must mean if she has CPT II it would be caused by a mutation not found on the CPT 2 gene.

I, at this point, broke down crying. I was expecting good news. I tried to control myself. The doctor and head nurse were not expecting this reaction. They asked me about how we were directed to treat Sarah at the other metabolic clinic. I explained the every three hour feedings and the breast pumping and the carnitine. The doctor said no wonder I started crying when she said to continue treatment. They said they liked to treat a child as naturally as possibly. They said that Sarah should be fed on-demand and could go four hours between feedings if she is sleeping but that when she is awake she will probably want to eat ever three hours anyway.

I spoke with the dietitian over the phone because she was home because of a back injury. She instructed that I should alternate feedings. One feeding should be breastfeeding and then the next a bottle of elixir without breast milk mixed in. This will maintain a low-fat diet but eliminate the hassle of expressing my breast milk.

The doctor diagnosed Sarah saying it was "presumptive CPT II." On all the paperwork it simply states: "Diagnosis:CARNITINE PALMITOYLTRANSFERASE 2 DEFICIENCY"

They then took a urine sample from Sarah. This was not an easy thing to accomplish. A bag was taped around her urethra and we waited for her to pee. I knew when she was going because urine got on my leg; there was a part of the tape that didn't stick completely.

Before we left to go home, we needed to go to the lab so they could draw more blood from Sarah to test her levels. This time she looked at me as though she couldn't understand why I was letting them do this to her. After, I left holding Sarah tightly as I cried. Apparently Sarah's emotions recuperated quicker than mine because she smiled over my shoulder at Kerry. This helped me feel less badly about my poor pin-cushion baby. I'm so grateful for Sarah's joyful spirit.

Metabolic Clinic

August, 2008

We were contacted by phone by the metabolic clinic at the children's hospital in our county. They asked how Sarah was doing. Apparently a big warning sign is if she is lethargic. I couldn't decipher if Sarah was lethargic or just being a normal newborn, which I knew from the baby care classes Jon and I took before Sarah was born. They told me that we should wake Sarah up every three hours to feed her and give her carnitine three times a day just in case she had one of the genetic disorders she was flagged as possibly having. They sent a prescription to CVS for the generic carnitine. Sarah didn't seem to like the Levocarnitine. We just kept squirting it in her mouth 3 times a day wth a feeding and usually watched it bubble back out or come out with all of her spit up.

When we first visited, it was August 7th, 2008. The people were very nice. They explained a diagram of a mitochondria and CPT II and carnitine and fat processing. They talked about many times the Newborn Screening is a false/positive and that we may not have anything to worry about.

They informed us that Sarah's second blood test still showed high C-18. After examining her, they said that she for sure didn't the fatal neonatal form of CPT II because she would be extremely sick, and she wasn't. They said the NBS could still be a false/positive and that the levels could have been what they were due to an undeveloped liver or some other reason. It was still not clear, so they wanted to play it safe to protect Sarah. We were told to feed Sarah a low-fat diet and that breast milk was 50% long-chain-fatty-acids which are the fats that could get trapped in her cells and become toxic, and not to let her fast (go with out eating) for longer than 3 hours. If she fasts for longer than that she may not be able to break down the fats needed to function and so she might start attacking her muscles, heart, or liver and then stop functioning and possibly die because of it.

We were instructed to have Sarah fast for a few hours before she came to the appointment so they could do a blood test. I had forgotten to plan the carnitine around the fasting time so she hadn't had any carnitine since 10pm the night before. Sarah just seemed tired, as per her usual.

They did a heel prick blood test in the office and sent us down to a lab to get another blood test.

At the lab a woman tried to take Sarah's blood from one arm. Sarah just cried and barely any blood came out. Then the woman said that on babies they can only try once and if they are unsuccessful, then they need to let another person try. The next woman was more successful, thank God. I rushed Sarah out and fed her in the car because she hadn't had food in more than 3 hours (I think she had gone almost 5 by that point).